ADULT GIRL

I can let go of the flower, now my power has returned
I can look back at the past, now I see what I have learned
Try my best to act my age, but the child won′t behave
She wants to scream and cry and rage, and who am I to dig her grave?

The teenage years I never lived
The innocence of high school kids
Young romance and endless nights
Of carefree joy and pure delight

Didn’t grow up in a normal world
And now I′m just an adult girl

Now I’m too old to die young, but at least I had some fun
Spent my twenties on the run drеaming of suicide and love
Think I’m stuck somewhеre between childhood and va-va-voom
Always cycling in between existential dread and doom

Messy, numb, razors and knives
Missed arteries and blacked out nights
Kittens, mittens, plushie toys
Bows and hearts and sullen boys

Robbed me of a teenage world
Now I′m just an adult girl
An adult girl

Someone, tell me how to heal the terror livin′ inside me
I don’t even know what′s real, I just know I wanna be free

All the things I lost and loved
Swept them underneath the rug
Like a child, I wait and hope
You might repair the things you broke

Now I understand the world
Of adult boys ‘cause I′m an adult girl
I’m an oyster without a pearl
But that′s just how it is for an adult girl
An adult girl
Adult girl